I had a nice conversation with my mom yesterday.  For those who have been following along, I recently was able to have a reconciliation with her after quite a long silence.

She shared with me something quite interesting.  As she is have been into astrology for quite some time, she ran my natal chart some time ago during our silent period.  There is a peculiar thing in my chart that didn't make much sense to her until we reconciled and I shared with her my plans for transition. 

In my chart, my Sun sign is square with my rising sign.  As I recall what she told me, it means that what I showed the world on the outside is different than how I am on the inside.

In the context of transitioning, it makes more sense than it did years ago when she first ran my chart.  My outside (male) is different than how I am on the inside (female).  My girlfriend took it further and said that on the outside (more when I was in male mode), I appeared cold and unapproachable when in reality on the inside, she finds me warm, loving, caring - very much the opposite. 

Now, more of the inside being, more of me, is surfacing on the outside.  I can tell I am warmer and more friendly towards others and they seem receptive of it.

There was a lot more information she shared with me and also will be sending me a copy to read over.  I look forward to reading it over.

Whether one believes in astrology or not  - it is interesting this dissonance was found in my chart.  I would have never imagined it.